Tuesday, June 3, 2014

Jasper and Flint

I am not really sure how to start this post.

On Thursday, May 29, 2014, my twin boys, Jasper and Flint, were born at 19 weeks gestation due to silent dilation of my cervix and preterm labor. They passed away shortly after.

It has been a long 5 days. I am so thankful for my husband and my oldest kiddo for giving me a reason to keep going. I am thankful for my family, who cocooned me this weekend. I am beyond thankful for my amazing nurses and doctors at Johnson City Medical Center for trying their hardest to save my boys, holding my hand, and grieving with me. I am thankful for my friends who are supporting me. And last, I am thankful that I got to spend the last 19 weeks being the mother of those amazing babies.

We are getting through, slowly but surely.

I've noticed every color in the sky this week.

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  1. Milly my heart grieves with you during this difficult season. I have experienced that heart ache of losing my daughters before I truly got to meet them. Pregnancy is one of God's most undervalued miracles. Today I am the mom of three amazing boys, and I count every moment with them as a precious gift from above. You are in my prayers. I am so thankful that you seem to have such an amazing family and support system.

    1. Thank you for your kind words, Ginny. It has been the hardest week of my life, but I am still here. I miss my twins with all of my heart. I know I'll get through the worst of it with time.